Uh oh, my creativity is showing...

Today was an absolutely perfect day, weather wise, for me. I am in love with fall, it's my favorite season. The cold bite that the air has to it makes me happy, it makes me want to lay on the lawn and stare up at the sky for hours and hours. Seriously.

Lately I've been itching to take pictures but have been seriously lacking in something to take a picture of. I decided that I'd bring my camera with me today to see if anything sparked my interest, because it seems like whenever I don't have my camera, something beautiful demands my attention, and I can't indulge it. :[ But the point is, I brought it with me to my aunt and uncle's and my uncle had his cards laying on their table in the garage and I just...got creative...and arranged them in certain ways and ended up with, in my totallyyyyyyyy unbiased opinion :P, some great shots. I took both of those shots up there. And there are plenty more here.

Gah. I have to read and write for my psych paper now...due tomorrow. I fail at managing time. But still in a good mood cuz I has good pictures. :)

Writing

I'm not sure if I mentioned it in a previous post, but I've been trying to write again and the other day (in class--a sign? I think so) an idea popped into my head. I decided to try something different, something I've never tried before when writing, and I started a new story written in a series of letters. It worked surprisingly well, it brought out a level of creativity that I've been lacking for some reason or another for a long time.

And, also surprisingly, the story seems to have generated a lot of positive feedback. I published it on FictionPress and deviantART, and on dA a few people have said they liked it. Boost of self esteem =]

SONIC! and new car shopping with grandma.

Today I had my very first Sonic experience. It was just as amazing as I thought it would be. Mae's mom and dad took us there at like, 9:30 because I had never been there, it was really sweet, lol. I had a cheeseburger, their amazing tater tots and a cherry limeade [which wasn't as delicious as the commercials promised, but was still pretty good.] Me, Mae and Paige went and ate on a table and we couldn't stop laughing, I swear we did not STOP giggling for the entire twenty minutes we were sitting outside. It got so ridiculous that some teenage boys at the table next to us started making fun of us but we didn't really care.

After that me and Mae came back here and we've watched Supernanny for a while.

Today me and Mom went to Grandma's and then we went to the dealership because Noodle's lease is up in a few weeks and she's buying another Mariner. Problem is, she's not sure what color to pick. She was choosing between this slate pearl gray, black, red and blue. I personally like the slate pearl gray or the red, but my mom like the black or some other gray color. My grandma's just a fan of the pearl gray or whatever. So we're not very close to her making a decision, lol.

My weekend's almost over :[ Tomorrow I work 3 to close, hopefully it doesn't go by too slowly and we're at least semi busy.

I totally forgot until just now that I have a 4 page film integration paper due for Abnormal Psych on that Ordinary People movie we watched in class last week. He was so bad at explaining what we had to do in the paper, I'm still kind of confused. From what I gathered from the syllabus, we have to discuss our impressions of the movie and somehow tie together the different therapy techniques that were used in the movie. It sounds simple enough but I'm kind of stressing about doing it right, even though my teacher said that it's really informal, as long as what he gets is a basic opinion and view of the movie and an honest critique and stuff, he'll be happy and we'll do fine. He's so laid back, he's a nice guy but sometimes I just think he's not doing what he's supposed to be doing for this course. Mae's mom took Abnormal Psych and said it was a really hard class, Michele said the same thing and it's pretty much my easiest class. It's also my most fun class.

I enjoy psychology classes so much, I feel like I'm more confident in them than I am in other classes because I'm actually interested in what's going on. I am pretty quiet in this one, but I've made a new acquaintance/friend, her name is Catherine, she's pretty nice. :]

Anyways. Bed time.

25 Things About Me

Mae posted a blog with 25 things about her, so I decided to post 25 things about me. Maybe I'll make this my about me after I'm done. But I kind of doubt it.

1. I try genuinely hard to be a good person, but I'm always wondering if it makes me a bad person, because I try so hard to be nice. Confused? So am I.
2. I feel like it takes longer for my birthday to get here than it does for anyone else's. Like, I feel like I've been 18 forever, and can't wait for my birthday.
3. Whenever I do these things-25 things about me, 16 things about me- I always go into a lot of detail. Mine are always longer than everybody else's. Does that make me self centered? I hope not :/
4. I love Degrassi: The next generation. I spend way too much time watching it.
5. I love to write, but most of the time I feel like I'm not producing anything worth reading.
6. I like to fondly refer to myself as a "self-taught" photographer. I've never had a class but taking pictures is one of my favorite things to do.
7. I have a weirdly big case of paranoia and anxiety.
8. I work at Jimmy John's.
9. Me and my best friend Mae have never made it through a movie without pausing to talk. It takes us at least 3 hours to watch a 2 hour movie. ;]
10. I have a chihuahua named Zelda who steals food and begs for lovies with her eyes. She's cute.
11. I love to read; I always have at least 3 or 4 books waiting for me to read, but that never stops me from going to Barnes and Noble and spending too much money on yet another book.
12. That being said, I'm a book snob. I'm almost 100% certain that I know better than most people what it takes to have a good book. Challenge me :P
13. That being said, Twilight is stupid. It's a poorly written book, Stephanie Meyers should be run over with a car for murdering literature the way she has, and that's all I have to say about it! Lol.
14. I spend a lot of time with my family.
15. I'm terrified of moving away to college, so I probably won't be doing it.
16. I don't know how to study. I honestly don't.
17. I love psychology and anything to do with it. Nothing in the world is more fascinating to me.
18. I would be a psychologist if I had the support and backing of most of the people around me. My friends say to go for it, that I would be great at it, but my entire family says I would suck at it. I think that's mean, but whatever.
19. I'm considering being a speech language pathologist, psychologist, or a physical therapist. I'm so confused! Someone map out my life for me.
20. I am supposed to be a very funny person, that's what people tell me, lol.
21. I love movies that make me think, really think about me, my life, my family, how everything relates to me. I have to be in the mood, though. Because sometimes I just want to watch Kung Fu Panda and fall asleep. :P
22. I have specific requirements for sleeping. I can't just pass out anywhere or anytime the way most people can. ;]
23. I drive a Sebring and while I love my little car, I would love a big SUV. People treat you like shit if you drive a little car, lol. Although I did just try to get my Grandpa to sell me his Corvette he just bought...it didn't work.
24. I'm a conservative.
25. I'm Catholic, have been my entire life, it's a pretty big part of me.

:]

I'm not okay.





and I'm afraid I never will be.

"Ordinary People" review

Today in abnormal psychology, we watched a movie called Ordinary People. It was made in 1980 and stars Donald Sutherland, Mary Tyler Moore, Judd Hirsch and, most importantly in my opinion, Timothy Hutton. I went into this movie thinking it was just going to be some stupid sappy movie about a family falling apart, but I was wrong.

Synopsis: The Jarretts are an upstanding and affluent family living in Chicago, who, on the outside, look like they are perfect. But inside the walls of their home, they're all slowly falling apart. The father, Calvin (Sutherland), is trying desperately to understand and get in the mind of his son Conrad (Hutton) who has just returned from a stay in a psychiatric hospital after trying to kill himself. Calvin is doing the best he can to get his son the help that he needs while trying to keep their family together. The mother, Beth (Moore) is distant, bitter, and has a hard time expressing love towards anyone but her older son, Buck, who drowned in a boating accident. She doesn't want to admit that there are problems in her family; she wants to make everyone think their life is perfect, including herself, husband, and son. The part of Conrad's psychiatrist is played by Judd Hirsch.

Honestly, I fell in love with this movie. I want to own it so I can watch it whenever I want. It seems to be a truly underrated movie, since no one I've talked to has heard of it. It won an Oscar for Best picture, and Timothy Hutton won an Oscar for best supporting actor, which he greatly deserved. His performance is quite possibly the best I've seen, ever. He plays the part of a teenager struggling to avoid his feelings of guilt, anger, fear and depression perfectly. There were a lot of really strong emotions in the movie that are handled with ease, and many scenes that brought me back to fights between my mom and dad [not a bad thing, it made it more realistic.]

The only thing I've ever seen Donald Sutherland in was when he was on that show, Commander in Chief, and he was a jerk, lol. He played such a sweet character that you felt so bad for him, as he tried so hard to both understand and get through to his remaining son while also trying to keep the peace between him and his wife. She is mad because she thinks he "indulges" Conrad when he goes after to him to make sure he's okay, or gets after him to eat or sleep or call his doctor. In reality, he's just trying to make sure their son doesn't try to kill himself again.

This was longer than I wanted it to be. Basically, great movie, everyone should watch it. If not to identify with the characters, because it is easy to identify with one of them, than to understand that this kind of stuff goes on everyday. I want to read the book now. :)

Oh, how gross

Today at work, I was on register and some guy was staring at the menu and he sneezed. Which, whatever, people sneeze. But he sneezed in his hands, then grabbed his money and handed it to me to pay for his sandwich. It was SO gross, I almost threw up all over him.