Uh oh, my creativity is showing...

Today was an absolutely perfect day, weather wise, for me. I am in love with fall, it's my favorite season. The cold bite that the air has to it makes me happy, it makes me want to lay on the lawn and stare up at the sky for hours and hours. Seriously.

Lately I've been itching to take pictures but have been seriously lacking in something to take a picture of. I decided that I'd bring my camera with me today to see if anything sparked my interest, because it seems like whenever I don't have my camera, something beautiful demands my attention, and I can't indulge it. :[ But the point is, I brought it with me to my aunt and uncle's and my uncle had his cards laying on their table in the garage and I just...got creative...and arranged them in certain ways and ended up with, in my totallyyyyyyyy unbiased opinion :P, some great shots. I took both of those shots up there. And there are plenty more here.

Gah. I have to read and write for my psych paper now...due tomorrow. I fail at managing time. But still in a good mood cuz I has good pictures. :)

Writing

I'm not sure if I mentioned it in a previous post, but I've been trying to write again and the other day (in class--a sign? I think so) an idea popped into my head. I decided to try something different, something I've never tried before when writing, and I started a new story written in a series of letters. It worked surprisingly well, it brought out a level of creativity that I've been lacking for some reason or another for a long time.

And, also surprisingly, the story seems to have generated a lot of positive feedback. I published it on FictionPress and deviantART, and on dA a few people have said they liked it. Boost of self esteem =]

SONIC! and new car shopping with grandma.

Today I had my very first Sonic experience. It was just as amazing as I thought it would be. Mae's mom and dad took us there at like, 9:30 because I had never been there, it was really sweet, lol. I had a cheeseburger, their amazing tater tots and a cherry limeade [which wasn't as delicious as the commercials promised, but was still pretty good.] Me, Mae and Paige went and ate on a table and we couldn't stop laughing, I swear we did not STOP giggling for the entire twenty minutes we were sitting outside. It got so ridiculous that some teenage boys at the table next to us started making fun of us but we didn't really care.

After that me and Mae came back here and we've watched Supernanny for a while.

Today me and Mom went to Grandma's and then we went to the dealership because Noodle's lease is up in a few weeks and she's buying another Mariner. Problem is, she's not sure what color to pick. She was choosing between this slate pearl gray, black, red and blue. I personally like the slate pearl gray or the red, but my mom like the black or some other gray color. My grandma's just a fan of the pearl gray or whatever. So we're not very close to her making a decision, lol.

My weekend's almost over :[ Tomorrow I work 3 to close, hopefully it doesn't go by too slowly and we're at least semi busy.

I totally forgot until just now that I have a 4 page film integration paper due for Abnormal Psych on that Ordinary People movie we watched in class last week. He was so bad at explaining what we had to do in the paper, I'm still kind of confused. From what I gathered from the syllabus, we have to discuss our impressions of the movie and somehow tie together the different therapy techniques that were used in the movie. It sounds simple enough but I'm kind of stressing about doing it right, even though my teacher said that it's really informal, as long as what he gets is a basic opinion and view of the movie and an honest critique and stuff, he'll be happy and we'll do fine. He's so laid back, he's a nice guy but sometimes I just think he's not doing what he's supposed to be doing for this course. Mae's mom took Abnormal Psych and said it was a really hard class, Michele said the same thing and it's pretty much my easiest class. It's also my most fun class.

I enjoy psychology classes so much, I feel like I'm more confident in them than I am in other classes because I'm actually interested in what's going on. I am pretty quiet in this one, but I've made a new acquaintance/friend, her name is Catherine, she's pretty nice. :]

Anyways. Bed time.

25 Things About Me

Mae posted a blog with 25 things about her, so I decided to post 25 things about me. Maybe I'll make this my about me after I'm done. But I kind of doubt it.

1. I try genuinely hard to be a good person, but I'm always wondering if it makes me a bad person, because I try so hard to be nice. Confused? So am I.
2. I feel like it takes longer for my birthday to get here than it does for anyone else's. Like, I feel like I've been 18 forever, and can't wait for my birthday.
3. Whenever I do these things-25 things about me, 16 things about me- I always go into a lot of detail. Mine are always longer than everybody else's. Does that make me self centered? I hope not :/
4. I love Degrassi: The next generation. I spend way too much time watching it.
5. I love to write, but most of the time I feel like I'm not producing anything worth reading.
6. I like to fondly refer to myself as a "self-taught" photographer. I've never had a class but taking pictures is one of my favorite things to do.
7. I have a weirdly big case of paranoia and anxiety.
8. I work at Jimmy John's.
9. Me and my best friend Mae have never made it through a movie without pausing to talk. It takes us at least 3 hours to watch a 2 hour movie. ;]
10. I have a chihuahua named Zelda who steals food and begs for lovies with her eyes. She's cute.
11. I love to read; I always have at least 3 or 4 books waiting for me to read, but that never stops me from going to Barnes and Noble and spending too much money on yet another book.
12. That being said, I'm a book snob. I'm almost 100% certain that I know better than most people what it takes to have a good book. Challenge me :P
13. That being said, Twilight is stupid. It's a poorly written book, Stephanie Meyers should be run over with a car for murdering literature the way she has, and that's all I have to say about it! Lol.
14. I spend a lot of time with my family.
15. I'm terrified of moving away to college, so I probably won't be doing it.
16. I don't know how to study. I honestly don't.
17. I love psychology and anything to do with it. Nothing in the world is more fascinating to me.
18. I would be a psychologist if I had the support and backing of most of the people around me. My friends say to go for it, that I would be great at it, but my entire family says I would suck at it. I think that's mean, but whatever.
19. I'm considering being a speech language pathologist, psychologist, or a physical therapist. I'm so confused! Someone map out my life for me.
20. I am supposed to be a very funny person, that's what people tell me, lol.
21. I love movies that make me think, really think about me, my life, my family, how everything relates to me. I have to be in the mood, though. Because sometimes I just want to watch Kung Fu Panda and fall asleep. :P
22. I have specific requirements for sleeping. I can't just pass out anywhere or anytime the way most people can. ;]
23. I drive a Sebring and while I love my little car, I would love a big SUV. People treat you like shit if you drive a little car, lol. Although I did just try to get my Grandpa to sell me his Corvette he just bought...it didn't work.
24. I'm a conservative.
25. I'm Catholic, have been my entire life, it's a pretty big part of me.

:]

I'm not okay.





and I'm afraid I never will be.

"Ordinary People" review

Today in abnormal psychology, we watched a movie called Ordinary People. It was made in 1980 and stars Donald Sutherland, Mary Tyler Moore, Judd Hirsch and, most importantly in my opinion, Timothy Hutton. I went into this movie thinking it was just going to be some stupid sappy movie about a family falling apart, but I was wrong.

Synopsis: The Jarretts are an upstanding and affluent family living in Chicago, who, on the outside, look like they are perfect. But inside the walls of their home, they're all slowly falling apart. The father, Calvin (Sutherland), is trying desperately to understand and get in the mind of his son Conrad (Hutton) who has just returned from a stay in a psychiatric hospital after trying to kill himself. Calvin is doing the best he can to get his son the help that he needs while trying to keep their family together. The mother, Beth (Moore) is distant, bitter, and has a hard time expressing love towards anyone but her older son, Buck, who drowned in a boating accident. She doesn't want to admit that there are problems in her family; she wants to make everyone think their life is perfect, including herself, husband, and son. The part of Conrad's psychiatrist is played by Judd Hirsch.

Honestly, I fell in love with this movie. I want to own it so I can watch it whenever I want. It seems to be a truly underrated movie, since no one I've talked to has heard of it. It won an Oscar for Best picture, and Timothy Hutton won an Oscar for best supporting actor, which he greatly deserved. His performance is quite possibly the best I've seen, ever. He plays the part of a teenager struggling to avoid his feelings of guilt, anger, fear and depression perfectly. There were a lot of really strong emotions in the movie that are handled with ease, and many scenes that brought me back to fights between my mom and dad [not a bad thing, it made it more realistic.]

The only thing I've ever seen Donald Sutherland in was when he was on that show, Commander in Chief, and he was a jerk, lol. He played such a sweet character that you felt so bad for him, as he tried so hard to both understand and get through to his remaining son while also trying to keep the peace between him and his wife. She is mad because she thinks he "indulges" Conrad when he goes after to him to make sure he's okay, or gets after him to eat or sleep or call his doctor. In reality, he's just trying to make sure their son doesn't try to kill himself again.

This was longer than I wanted it to be. Basically, great movie, everyone should watch it. If not to identify with the characters, because it is easy to identify with one of them, than to understand that this kind of stuff goes on everyday. I want to read the book now. :)

Oh, how gross

Today at work, I was on register and some guy was staring at the menu and he sneezed. Which, whatever, people sneeze. But he sneezed in his hands, then grabbed his money and handed it to me to pay for his sandwich. It was SO gross, I almost threw up all over him.

New Assignment

Without meaning to, today at work Brant (my manager) gave me a great idea for a new photography "assignment". We were talking about the flames pictures I have recently taken, and he was like "Were you listening to Candle in the Wind when you took it?" and he was joking, but it gave me a great idea: I could take a representative picture of every Elton John song that I know and love.

Is it lame? Honestly, feedback is needed. Because I was REALLY excited about doing this, it would be so much fun for me and it gave me some sort of inspiration, because lately I haven't had much of it. I had already started planning what kinds of pictures I want to take when somehow or other I came to the conclusion that it might be lame. I know that I should do it and not care what anybody else thinks because I'm so excited, but whatever. My need for acceptance is crippling me.

Gah! Going to bed.

dA rambles

There's this website out there called deviantart.com. It's a great place to showcase your work, whether it be photography, drawing, anime, writing, anything of that nature. It's free and a pretty user-friendly site, I'd say (completely unlike this one lol). However, in the past few days, it's done what every other site in the world has done and made unnecessary layout changes.

I hate when sites try to "cute" things up and make them more what they consider to be modern. It was perfectly fine the way it was, so what's the point in changing things? There's always a huge roar when facebook changes its layout, which they do too often. The page layout will be fine, and everyone will have finally gotten used to it and stopped complaining that they miss the old one, and then they'll change it so it's infinitely harder to use and figure out what's going on than the old one. Me, I miss the first two Facebook layouts. When you went on someone's page, they're status updates used to be either bolded, or larger than the rest of what was going on on their wall. Now, you look and it's like, oh, they're talking to themselves...no wait, it's just their status update. Maybe I take this like too seriously, but if I'm gonna spend my time on their website, I don't want to be constantly annoyed with the aesthetics.

Okay, so you post your picture/drawing/poem to the site and then when you click on it, it used to take you to this page where it showed the information about the picture and the camera you took it with, provided you submitted a picture, and then the artist's comments about it...and they changed it so that you still see all of it, but it's in like, a speech bubble and it looks like you commented on your own work. It bugs me. I hate when people change sites, I can understand needing to do updates, but it's annoying.

Is it bad that I'm considering making a TV schedule so I know what's recording when and how long I have to watch it? Yeah, I think that's bad. But oh well. Lifetime shows old episodes of Grey's Anatomy every day, but they're not the most recent ones. Right now, I'm watching the episode with the bomb...and then Bailey goes into labor and her husband gets hit by a car or something. I really wanna watch the new season but I haven't watched the most recent ones. So...

Me and Mae have been having mini Desperate Housewives marathons in a desperate attempt to get me caught up before season six starts next Sunday, but it's not looking good since all we ever do is talk XD So far, season five has been pretty good, but Mae says it gets even better ;]

Why have all my blogs lately been about TV? Moving on.

Today was the second and last day (Finally) of our garage sale. I think my mom and grandma were happy, ultimately, because they sold a ton of the stuff that they wanted to get rid of. Grandma sold: two huge chairs, a mirror, an end table, a box of antique silverware, a computer monitor and keyboard, a bag, a metal wheelbarrow, some glasses, a quilt, and a couple of other small things. My mom sold: her wireless keyboard and mouse, a core stability ball, all the DVDs we brought, one of my games, a wallet, all the purses she brought, and some of her other tiny things she brought. I sold: five or six of my books that I brought, some toys, my old Hogwarts castle/train, and a bratz car that I've had for a while. I didn't make that much money, maybe six bucks, but I didn't really care. I wasn't really there to sell things, I had just brought a bunch of my books, most of which didn't sell, and then my mom gave me the money that I made from most of my toys that were sold.

That being said, I'm so glad it's over. Friday and Saturday went by SO SLOWLY that I couldn't even believe it. I've been so stressed during the last two days that my anxiety has doubled, possibly even tripled. The reason I've been stressed is because it has been nothing but yelling, shrill, loud voices, and berating for two days. After almost nineteen years of those exact conditions, I literally can't take it anymore; my anxiety gets out of hand. I get easily agitated. I've been constantly agitated for almost two straight days...ugh. lol

The end of today was pretty good though, Mae came to the garage sale and then her and mom and I went to the thrift store after. Then I went to her house and chilled...anyways. Bed time.

"Community" Review

Thursday a new show started on NBC. It's a half hour sitcom called "Community" starring Joel McHale, Chevy Chase and quite a few others. I first heard about it when I was watching The Soup the other night, because Joel McHale is the host of the Soup and he was promoting the show. It looked vaguely interesting so I recorded it just for the hell of it and watched it a little bit ago.


It's a comedy show about a snarky, disbarred lawyer [McHale] who is going back to community college to get a real degree, since he lied about the first one (hence the disbarment). On his first day he meets a pretty girl who is in his spanish class who is worried about passing their test, and he REALLY wants to get to know her... so he tells her is a "board certified spanish tutor" and that he has a little study group going in the library at X time she agrees to come. The only catch is, it's a huge lie and quite a few other people show up to this study group.

I have to say, I don't usually bother watching sitcoms nowadays because in my opinion most of them are all the same-unfunny dialogue read in a funny way, and the same type of characters over and over. But I really liked Community; it was a fairly new idea for a TV show, and the characters were hilarious. There was an Arabic guy name Abad in there who just sits there and talks really fast spewing out random pop culture facts that half the time no one pays attention to; a girl who was sent to rehab in high school [they call her Adderal Annie], a middle aged woman who is made to feel semi-self conscious about her decisions in life, and a few others. The dialogue was pretty hilarious, too. Half the time the humor was really subtle and that was why it was so funny; the other half it was just Joel McHale being his ridiculous self and causing shenanigans.

So, I suggest that people watch Community, it breaks up the normal TV drama blah's and is a pretty original idea. It's on Thursday nights at...8:30pm I believe on NBC. :]

Garage saling

Recorded episodes of Degrassi have slowly been taking over my life. I'm not complaining...I'm just stating. lol. As we speak, I'm watching the episode where JT gets stabbed[and consequently dies...]. Yeah, he just got stabbed. Now I'm crying. Shiiiiiit. I clicked "record series" on my DVR yesterday and I have 86 episodes set to record by like October 8th. It's gonna be nuts. I may have to take a hiatus from life just to watch it all, lol.

Today was the first day of my Grandma's garage sale. As I predicted, it was really boring. I brought over, like, 15ish books and not one of them sold. My mom sold a few DVDs, a game, a wallet, some purses, blah blah. She made like 25 dollars. My grandma sold a TON of her stuff, she mostly had big crap. She had two tables, two chairs, a set of three of these absolutely atrocious bar stools from the '50's, a mirror, and her other odds and ends that she collects over the years. She made quite a bit of money, she sold one of the tables, the mirror and two chairs. Plus some of her other crap.

My mom and I went around to the other garage sales. She got a christmas ornament, I got a book and the Sims 2 for two dollars. It works and everything, it was an incredible deal. I'm so glad I got it =] Sometimes it pays to wait five years to buy something... :]

Tonight I'm going to see "Cloudy with A Chance of Meatballs" with Kristina, we're gonna have fun. =]

I'm so glad that after I leave class [Yes, I'm in class-but it's just my computer class and truly, if I fool around for one day and do no work, life won't end] I have the rest of the day off. I'm considering going back to bed; I'm so exciting.

Yesterday was a pretty good day, my history class was eventful, to say the least. My teacher told he was going to draw a long hut, which is some kind of indian hut, on the board. Well, Katie and I looked up, and I swear, he had drawn a penis on the board. It was, I swear. But yeah.

I've been watching an awful lot of TV lately, mainly Degrassi. I waited years to have the N, and dammit, I'm gonna use it. :P I'm in love with that show. It might be cheesy and lame, but I hardcore love it. The new season starts in October; I think I'll set it up to record it. Biggest Loser starts tonight; love that show, and I'm really glad it's back. House comes back next week too, or so I hear; hopefully it doesn't suck anymore, last season was OK but I miss the older episodes.

I'm boring.

My life is so boring. That's why its 12:21am and I'm watching rugrats while I nurse my migraine. Ow.

Slightly euphoric

I just all of a sudden got in a really good mood and, as a result, HAD to make a post about it, to remind myself when I get in a not so good mood :)

I'm just sitting here, about to go lay in bed and watch Degrassi or read a book or something and I'm just thinking about how lucky I truly am. I don't always get along with everyone in my life and sometimes I don't handle situations the way I should but I try my hardest and I have a lot of great things and people in my life. When it gets down to it, God never gives you anything you cannot handle and I believe I'm lucky for the blessings I have in my life.

When things get bad, I guess I'm gonna try and look back at this post and see how lucky and blessed I am.

Clean room! and U-Verse

So yesterday I spent the entire evening cleaning my room. I didn't stop cleaning for a good...almost 6 hours, and while there are still a few things I need to put away and re-order, it looks really good. There's barely anything on my floor anymore, and once I put back all the things that need to be put back because I moved them for the cable guy, it should be just about clean. It looks pretty great. As I stated in a post a couple of days ago, I ended up cleaning my room well into the wee hours of the morning. I didn't get to bed until about 3:15am. But that's my own fault.

I think I'm gonna sell the old toys that were on the bottom shelf of my shelving unit in my grandma's garage sale. I never use them, the only time they get used is when Cass and Nick come over and they play with them. But they're taking up space and make my room look like a four year old's, and I don't want them cluttering anything up anymore. I don't need them or want them anymore. If you know me, you know how huge of a step that is :P

This morning the U-Verse guy came at 9a to install the new cable, hook up the phones and hook up the internet. It took him a long time but he was so nice about all of it, and about all of our questions that we had, haha. He was here for a long time, I was kind of surprised that it so long. He was here for about 4 hours. So, now we have the U-Verse boxes in the living room, my mom's room, my room, and the kitchen. I also have my brand new TV hooked up in my room, it's so pretty =] I played with it for a few minutes and figured out how to use the DVD player in the back of my TV and how to turn it on and off, record a show, yadda yadda yadda. :] WE HAVE THE N NOW, OH MY GOSH I'M NEVER GOING TO STOP WATCHING DEGRASSI. Just saying. :)

Charlie & The Chocolate Factory wall post lol's

click on it to read it XD

Ohhh, I love my best frand. Keep in mind, this wall post took place while we were sitting next to each other on separate computers.

Too tired to function

I hate waking up. Seriously. It ruins the day! I had class at 9:30...which I ended up leaving around 10:15 anyways so I don't know why I even bother. I seriously contemplated just rolling over and going back to sleep until I had to get up for work, but I know that I have to go to class, at least so he can take attendance and say that I was there. Ugh ugh ugh. At least it was my last class and now it's the "weekend". My fridays are spectacular. I worked from 11:15-3 today and then that's it, weekend time. I don't work again till Sunday.

In other news...I haven't touched my room since I cleaned that one corner the other night. When was that? Like, Monday? Yeah. It's Thursday. If I wasn't so freaking tired/lazy at the end of the day I COULD do it, but I'm exhausted and just want to flop into bed. I'm gonna end up scrambling around at 3am Saturday morning before the guy comes to install the cable and nothing's going to be done properly. I have no clue how to budget my time.

I'm also supposed to be gathering stuff up for the garage sale my Grandma's having next Thursday and Friday [I think that's when it is] My mom is taking the day off for it, or whatever, and I think we're supposed to be getting rid of some stuff. It's not like there isn't stuff I want to get rid of...I just hate getting rid of it. I hate thinking, like, what if I need that some day and I won't have it? I know that's idiotic because when am I ever going to need my book "the girl's guide to puberty" ever again? Srsly. I think I have that book in the garage somewhere. But I do need to get rid of stuff. I have entirely to much crap that I don't use. And maybe with the money I make I can buy something that I might actually like and use...or put it towards buying a new lens for my camera, which I know I would use. Mmm, to think of having a telephoto lens... :]

Yesterday when Mae came over, we watched a show on TLC called "The Lottery Changed My Life", which is kind of absurd because if winning the lottery didn't change your life then you didn't win a very good lottery. Anyways, I was fascinating about how many amazing accessories I could get for my camera! I could easily spend two or three thousand dollars on it all. Lol. A wideangle lens? That runs like 1200 dollars. 1200 DOLLARS GUYS! And my fish eye lens that I want so bad I can TASTE IT? 700 dollars. Why am I so expensive?! lolll.

Is hell still beneath me, or am I already there?

Well, my mini break is over. I had class this morning. It's not like today was going to be a huge heavy class day, it's only my computer class and I only stay in that one for like a half hour before leaving so I don't get too ahead. Then I just came back here and I'm watching a movie and thinking about taking a nap, haha. I don't work on Tuesdays so that explains my absence there.

I got the corner of my room that's had crap in it for a long time cleaned out yesterday night. It looks pretty good, I threw a bunch of stuff away and folded my blankets neatly that were in that corner. The rest of my room is just basically "tidy up" stuff. Basically stuff that resulted in me being a lazy ass and not wanting to put anything back where it goes. I have to get it clean before Saturday and blah blah.

I found this new song that I really love, the lyrics are really deep and mean a lot to me, especially the chorus.


"Brave New World"-Hedley.

Lyrics.


It's a really great song. There really isn't anything else to talk about...I think I'm gonna take that nap now.

You make me smile like the sun

Today had some sucky parts to it, but I don't want to say the whole day sucked. Just a little bit of suckyness, lol. Before work, Mom and I went to Target. I spent the gift card I got from my bosses, and bought something else too lol. With the gift card I got a new game for my Nintendo DS. It's the Sims 2 Apartment Pets, it looks really cool and I'm gonna play it in a little bit. I also bought two gatorades because they were on sale and it's something to drink before school since I DETEST eating before class, it makes me sick. Also, I bought a cool new bracelet. It's a silver chain type thing and you can buy charms to attach to it, it's really neat. I bought the bracelet, a charm that says "believe" on it, and an A. For Amber, haha.

Today when I came home from work [not too long ago] I was in a pretty bad mood. I'm tired, my feet kinda hurt, and I still have tons of cleaning to do in my room and I should start reading my book for History. So, hence the bad mood. Anyways, I logged into blogger and my best friend, Mae had made a post with a recent picture I just posted on DeviantART of Zelda, about how much she liked the picture. It turned my frown upside down, it is so nice to know that there are people who really like my photography. Mae is always making me feel better, she makes me laugh so hard and I know I can tell her anything and she isn't gonna be like "wow she's a bitch" [cuz she already knows :P] I'm so lucky to have a best friend like that, one who isn't a crazy person every other second and who is WILLING to know a weirdo like me :)

New TV and changing my room

Today was a semi-good day. Mom and I went to the AT&T store this afternoon to talk about getting U-Verse TV, Internet and home phone in the house. With the combo deal, it's cheaper than what we're currently paying, plus we will have a lot more features, including DVR. I am so unbelievably excited for the DVR and the rewind and fast forward features. :] I swear, I won't stop watching TV for a year.

And I got my new TV today... :] It's a 19" Magnavox with a built in DVD player. That's a great feature, I'm so excited about that. My room is going to be so nice once I clean my room, and get my furniture switched back around to a way that makes SENSE. My mom is going to move the PC somewhere else, probably the dining room table, so we can get my desk out of my room which is falling apart and no use to anyone. So, my room will be clean, my furniture switched around, my new TV/cable hooked up, and the desk out of there which will give me a lot more room. My mom and I want to paint my room a different color and maybe get new bedding and stuff. Right now I'm really unhappy with my room, I feel like it's still a little kids' room and I want to do some renovations, moving around and painting and stuff and turn it into more of an 'adult' room. I loved light purple when I was 7 but I'll be 19 in a little more than a month and I want a change.

My grandma's condo complex is having a garage sale the 18 or 19 of September and I think I'm going to sell some of my old toys and stuff that I no longer use. It's hard for me to get rid of anything, and I mean anything, but I'm going to have to try. I need to turn my room into some kind of place where I can buckle down and concentrate to study for school, and also a place where I can relax and unwind after working and going to school all day. I'm thinking a light green or blue color for my walls, although I really want to try something different, like a different color on each wall XD I don't know if my mom would go for that, though. My grandma tried to tell me to make it white but the only way I would do that would be if I was allowed to get different colors of paint and draw designs, doodles, and write words or quotes all over the walls [which would be freaking awesome.] but that won't ever happen. I'm not the kind of person who needs a white room, I need something colorful to bring out the color in me ;] I'm excited for the renovations I wanna make on my room.

Just some new pictures

I took a couple of new photos today on the way home from Danette's, they were kind of spur of the moment so they're a bit blurry. We were driving and it was almost dark out so that's why, too. Anyone got any tips on how to take UNBLURRY night photos [with no flash]?

Just a little update

Well I haven't written an actual blog in a couple of days, I've been busy with work and school and by the time I get around to sitting on the computer until the wee hours of the morning, I'm too tired to really think of words and put them down most of the time. I think everyone's been busy getting back into school, my buffel is doing good though =] She got 100% on her bio quiz which is pretty amazing because in my opinion biology and any of the science classes are really hard so woohoo to her :D

Anyyyywayyyys. I didn't have a bad week but it seemed really long. First full week of the school year so it went by really slowly. On Monday, I started my Political Science class, which hopefully won't be so boring the entire class. I couldn't concentrate AT ALL. I've been having a hard time concentrating, period, but hopefully that gets better too, otherwise I don't know what I'm going to do. Psychology was amazing, we had a class discussion for almost the entire three hours and it was actually interesting so I was able to pay attention, haha.

I don't have classes on Monday which is awesome. Katie and I chose our books for our History class on Tuesday. She got a book on the war of 1812 and I got a book about the Salem witch trials, which I think I'm gonna start reading soon.

More book quotes

"I close my eyes and I take a deep breath and I think about my life and how I ended up this way. I think about the ruin, devastation, and wreckage I have caused to myself and to others. I think about self-hatred and self-loathing. I think about how and why and what happened and the thoughts come easily, but the answers don't."
--James Frey, "A Million Little Pieces"

"It gets late and we put away the cards and we get into our beds. My body still wants what I cannot give it and I'm unable to sleep so I lie on my back and I stare at the ceiling. I think about where I am and how I got here and what the fuck am I going to do and I listen to Larry cry and pound on his pillow and curse God and beg for forgiveness. At a certain point my eyes close and at a certain point I fall asleep."

--James Frey, "A million little pieces"

Today was a pretty good day. I had my computer class from 9:30-10:50. I didn't stay the whole time because I don't want to get too ahead because I know I'll end up finishing the class early and by week 8 I'll have to just come in and sit there for almost two hours doing nothing. On the first day of class, he told us that most of us would be able to finish the class in two or three weeks and that after that we just didn't have to show up anymore. It would be great if it weren't for the fact that as a financial aid student, I'm required to have damn near perfect attendance, so I'm just going to work on the class material as it's supposed to be presented. I'll finish the work that was scheduled for that day, and then go on my merry way. Which means I'll drive to Scraft, troll for a parking spot for ten minutes and STILL end up in row T, walk two miles to the building, sit down, complete the assessment for ten or fifteen minutes, then go back home. Oh, it sounds so lovely. But anyways.

After class, I went to get coffee with Heidi and to the thrift store. My, the pickings were lush today at the thrift store! I got four new books, two of which I'd been wanting to get at the book store but refused to spend 17 dollars a piece on them, and got them for .49 cents. I also got 2 VHS tapes, and a mask of Davy Jones from Pirates of the Caribbean 2. Yeah, it was probably a stupid purchase, but a trip to DAV isn't complete unless I buy at least one totally non logical item I'll never use. :)

And after THAT, Katie and I went to Barnes and Noble to get our books for our History class. We had to pick a non fiction book from 1492-1824 or something like that. Sounds easy enough, but trust me, it isn't. Not if you're looking for something that is mildly interesting and you won't want to burn. Katie ended up with a book about the war of 1812 and I got a book about the salem witch trials, which I'm kind of interested in. I at least don't loathe the subject entirely.

I found out the other day that Alyson is in my history class, which is really cool! =] Now our fantabulous quiz group will include Katie, Me, Alyson, and that old guy Katie likes so much...haha. Off to bed, now.